Talk is cheap

Thats what she said, and she's right.
She has no reason for me to believe what i say.

Which is why i'm not just gonna tell her constantly, I'm gonna show her, through years and years of comfort, happiness, and fun.

She helps me get over myself and my complexity, she helps me realize that in the end no matter how bad or how annoying things get, she'll still be there. Calm and collected. No one in my life has had me face my dark side of my personality. No one has ever made me challenge it. No one has ever made me love, the way she has me love her.

Tiffany, I'll show you.
Talk is cheap.
But Love isn't.

Rage

I think i made a list of who i will fight in the future a while back.
I kinda want to add more people right now.
This won't make me feel better but it'll make me feel content.

First on the list: Adam Moore
Second: wouldn't you like to know.
Third: again, wouldn't you like to know.


You'd be surprised who i want to scrap with for the sake of closure between me and them.
Closure or having the feeling of ending their annoying/douchebaggieness.

Come at me.

I think

I have a problem.
One that is of a psychological sort.
I'm starting to think i have chronic depression.
coupled with anger.

I just, get so sad some times you know?
and it usually happens often and out of nowhere.
but it hasn't been like this before.
Not as bad as this.
Like, something bad happens or i come to realization that things aren't working out and i just get really sad.
I want to say what's on my mind, i really do.
But what's on my mind isn't exactly the prettiest nor selfless.
It's selfish down to the bone.
I'm sad
I'm really sad right now.
Ugh, i guess admitting it is the first step to recovery.

There's something about her.

She surprises me every day and it's always the little things that make me feel all giddy and happy when i think of her. It's like, she's showing me little things, little quirks that are just so massive that, the way she's presenting them, makes the actual hobby seem that much more awesome. Case in point, she paints with water colors. I love the fact that she's is a wonderful artist. The few times in which i've seen her drawings were the few times in which i've fell in love with her all over again. It wasn't something i expected either which was even more amazing.

She's is pretty handy with video games as well as handy with a lot of random things. When i mean handy i mean you'd be surprised by her skill on many things. Board games, she'll fuck your shit up, Trivia? You're dead. xD
I still remember the first thing she told me when i asked her "what do you do?" she smiled and said.. Nothing.
Now that i've been with her for quite a bit of time i can clearly say that is a huge understatement. No one have i met knows more about pop culture then she does.
No one i met knows as many funny jokes, stories, memories, plans, dreams, mockeries, disses, racist remarks, etc. than she does.
No one i met knows, just how to make me smile even when i'm feeling like the world is crumbling down.
No one i met taught me to love, the same way she has.

My fuck you Muni list.

I am a hater
i hate a lot of things.
Other than loving a lot of things.
there's one thing i currently HATE with a passion.

The Muni
Fuck the MUNI in San Francisco.
Fuck the whole corrupt system inside.
Fuck You Gavin Newsom for making retarded "plans" to fix Muni, Still hasn't worked.
Fuck You 28 driver, i had my fucking transfer you bastard.
Fuck you 71 driver for passing us up and taking off when we catch up to you. Get bent faggot.
Fuck you smelly ass homeless people who dont pay for the fair either.
Fuck you smelly ass dude who doesn't put on deodorant.
Fuck you Muni for making me sound like a stuck up kid who's living in the most smug cities in the world.
Fuck you Muni for your fucked up delays.
Fuck you Muni shutting your damn door in my face when the bus was fucking empty.
Fuck you Old chinese lady who pushed me.
ahh nvm forget the last one i just said.
Fuck you loud ass obnoxious black kids/ladies whatever

I now respect you graffiti writers who write gorilla retarded scribble shit on the window.
I feel your pain.
*Grabs sharpie.

Come at me Muni. Every inch of me will resist you.

I play with knives.

My hobbies range from playing guitar to dancing to snowboarding to cars. You know guy stuff. Now how can my list of hobbies become any more manlier? KNIVES
fuck yeah
butterfly knives
and flipping knives around your hand and enduring cuts bruises and junk all to make that annoying feeling of being bored vanish. also to feel like a man.
because thats what all guys want.
is to feel manly
even the gay ones.
feel MANLY
i kid.
ANYWAY
i've always wanted to flip knives ever since i saw my uncle do it a long ass time ago.
So with the dawning of a new age i decided. eff it why not *buys butterfly knife.
so far this is turning to be a damn good buy seeing as how i'm using it as i type this.
and yeah!
thats it.

just go ahead and add playing with knives to my list of hobbies.
/weird.

Disclaimer: i am not homosexual

Okay now that we got that out of the way there i something i'm seriously considering to do.
brace for it
those who dont really care and people who aren't reading this.

I want to be a male model

What?!
jesus thats gross/gay/wtf/conceited

no it's not.

I dont know why but i've been seriously considering becoming a male model for big names like calvin klein, ambercrombie and fitch, american eagle, All that white shit.

I dont know why.

it's weird.
i am not homosexual.
i have an intense lover named tiffany who i seriously want to stay with For a LONG ASS TIME

anyway i digress.

The root of this is i had an unhealthy obsession of making sure i looked decent.
but i was never rich enough or cared enough sometimes to dress extremely well. Enough people have told me that i could potentially be a model but i thought they were just trying to be nice. heck they probably are but i dont think i'm THAT good looking to be a model. but i want to be in a magazine here and there, maybe even a billboard.

Sounds ridiculous i know but, i want my life to be interesting.
Lets go get it shall we?

Arcades

Ever since I could remember i have always had a passion and love for arcades. Something about that atmosphere always illuminated my feelings for the bright lights and clashes and bangs you heard through out the room. I Loved how you could just walk into any arcade and find something fun or interesting to play. Keyword- ALWAYS

Thus it has been one of my many child-hood dreams to work in an arcade. Yes it is of course, not as fun as being a patron to an arcade but just being at an arcade makes me feel so.. at home? It brings me back to the days when my parents would go gambling and send my siblings and I to the arcade. Mostly in Las Vegas there was this gem called Game Works. Game Works was a masterpiece in and of itself. They're pay system was made to use cards instead of coins. You basically buy the ammount of time you're going to play. The one day when my parents bought my siblings, cousins, and I an all day pass, was one of the most gangsta ass days ever. We played every single game nearly five times. The entire arcade was a two story underground lair which boasted all the new and popular games such as DDR, Initial D, Time Crisis, House of the Dead, etc. To the rare gems such as the many japanese rhythm games, to the not so seen shooters such as ghost squad. Interestingly enough we spent nearly eight hours in that arcade playing all the amazing games. Not skilled enough to play competitively i focused more on what games were straight up fun to play. However i digress, what im really trying to say is that, I'm applying for an arcade here in San Francisco, and by GOD i'm hoping and praying that i recieve the job. Not just for the career experience or the side money i can use, but for personal experience. To cross that destination off my bucket list. And to really say when i'm older, "yeah, my first job was working at an arcade."

Something in the way.

Tiffany Yen-Shing Diep

You surprise me in how you tend to linger in my mind nearly every hour in every day. The problem with blogging about you is that, there is just so much i want to say about you, to you.. erm.. past you.. erm.. in front of you, etc.
However, i truly mean this when i say that I Love you.
When i say that, i can only feel true honesty and love.
In other words, I mean it.
Truly and Deeply mean it.
I want this to work out.
I really do.
xD

Slowly turning into an asshole myself.

This City is wonderful, i love it so much that i just cant explain it xD

But there is one thing im personally noticing about myself other than the weight im gaining.
Im slowly turning into a total douche that has to make fun of everything around him and have fun at other peoples expense.
As i walk downtown with tiffany i constantly make jokes about other people and yes it is quite funny i usually dont do this to the extent where it's just a little too far.

I say this because today got me so heated i cant just keep that shit in my head.
I wanted to just bash the head in of two people today.

My sister and I were at the Cal vs. Davis game which was very enjoyable. Cal destroyed davis i felt bad but whatever.
So these black kids sit behind me and they're you know being black and all.
whatever anyway one of the baboons asks if i want to trade posters, my cal for his piece of shit folded fucking poster.
i was like nah man.
he goes you sure?
i go yeah. and ignore him.
near the end of the game im holding the poster
the fucking nigger yanks that shit right outta my hand and tries high tailing it out.
i get up and go what the fuck?
chase him down the steps with the most pissed look
balled my fist and was about to lay this fucker out.
he looks at me and goes OHhhh sorry i didn't know you wanted it back
and throws the poster and runs.
im like.... fucking nigger.
seriously.
come back im hella heated.
we leave the game

So we're on the bart station after the game
and this other fucking asian creeps by and says "davis is better" in the most smug way ever.
Granted i dont even go to the school but the way he just said it pissed me off.
He's literally right next to me and my sister so i go.
"Oh shit, DAVIS GO HOME.
What was the score? Oh yeah fucking 52 to 3 how sad.
GO HOME DAVIS, man what a joke."
the guy is looking at me the entire time i'm obnoxiously saying it outloud.
then i board. Doesn't say a word again.
Fuck that guy
and fuck that fucking black kid

I'll wreck your shit.


asdfsdfa

I need an outlet.

I've got

a crush on you.
get outta my head
actually. eff that
stay there
i like it.
=)

three days or rather two

This is really fucking hitting me.
All my friends old and new are going in different directions and starting new things and it's just.. amazing to see what is to come.
I mean. one of my old good friends has a jerky selling business.
THATS AWESOME!!

Everyone's leaving for college or some place to work and it's just, sad..
Really sad.
I'm just amazed at the memories, the many stories, the heart aches and the heartwarming moments. The times when i hated this town and everyone in it to the times when i couldn't imagine a better place to live. It has it's charms while having it's downsides. I just, can't believe it's slowly coming to an end. Not a complete end but a finish to a growing up point in my life. Fuck, I'm gonna miss so many things. Chilling with the likes of Mark Neely, Will, Josh, AJ, johnnie, ray, tim, john, shiet, janine, chelsea, angelique, francis, other francis, jeremy, maddy, saroo, monicha, those old intellect members, fucking alexis and evan fucking A. Members of AGI*LITY fucking shit Avo, joel, Dj, ETC. Kimi, AD, Niko, Seth, asdfdsfa, Jonald, Marky, Joseph and Joshua, fucking A. ALL of the cfc-y kids. There's just, so many people that i can't believe I've met and had meaningful conversations and lasting memories. Getting backflipped on, or having my first battle, getting tottaly jocked by chelsea, going to SD with mark and josh, walking into Muligans and ending up being dissapointed. The many households and camps that were utterly amazing. ROTC classes which made me want to blow my brains out. Dance production practice which made me love theater and dancing and all that shit. Going to Mt.High and being offered beer and weed constantly and being mistaken for the age of 24. shiiiiet Rival schools, dance competitions, Shooting competitions. Learning Guitar for the first time. Experiencing a true loss. Those many crying moments. Those many fuck yeah i feel fantastic moments.

Now it is time for me to leave the building.
Embark on this new journey of memories and friends and lovers.

*heads out the front door.

signed XD

Better Luck Tomorrow

I first watched this gem of a movie in sixth grade when i first moved back into California. This time was a rather awkward time due to the pubescent nature and my raging hormones paired with my need to find who i was since that little boy who liked hide and go seek with his cousins just wasn't going to cut it anymore in big boy middle school.

This movie stars an all Asian American cast which is still considered rare within cinemas today.

The main plot revolves around a high-school senior who is of course Asian and an overachiever. He's in the academics club, has a great job, great grades, no girlfriend, the typical over-achiever image within high-school. Soon enough the plot develops into the crazy antics high school can be. He soon be-friends his club president in which him and his two other friends make a business out of selling test scores. They get away with all of their antics due to their grades thus the phrase "our grades were our alibis" was portrayed heavily. The main character meets his love partner who is of course dating a popular Asian man from another school. Everything becomes linked within all the characters and with one thing leading to another, the main character makes a choice that affects the lives of every single character. Pretty soon all of their lives take turns into many different directions ending off in a surprising and questionable action and ending.

I'm writing this whole synopsis because... comparing it to when i watched it in sixth grade in which i thought the best part was the sex scene and the ending made me feel sad and weird. I watch it now six years later, my mind a little bit more maturer in the fact that i understand all the innuendos, allusions, and satire that is within the movie. (Oh i can't forget stereotypes)It made me sort of think about the high-school career some of us had and portrayed. It wasn't just the actions they did but it was they're true coming of age story. I think i may have been exposed to this movie quite early because it affected how my mind thought when i was in middle school. However i digress, what I'm trying to say is that, it's funny that you understand things a little more as you grow older. You don't become stupider or blinder towards modern day things. You tend to become... smarter.

This movie was my... Breakfast Club, my coming of age story.
I wonder how college is going to fare to my eventful high-school days.

Btdubs the sex scene was okay. there's much better ones out there.
IE: Halle Berry in Monster

And the ending still fucking gets to me.
>_<

Correction: Derby Loves Daphne

You've left me with such a silent world,
Where evenings are calm, but I'm restless
And my breath has become as thin as the wind.

Not even the mighty sky could fill the space you left behind
Not even when it rains.
No, nothing takes your place
Your emptiness too great to fill.

I have been holding my breath,
For too many nights in a row,
And somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
You paint your dreams,
With reds and blues and greens.
Yea you're painting daffodils by the sea,
Without me.

Tarde el tiempo para realizar

This entire summer the only thing I've been focused on was when i was going to leave, or how many days i had left or what i was gonna do when i first leave my parents and junk. I completely discounted the current place i'm in until just recently. Hands down this is been my most enjoyable summer as of late. I seemed to have gotten by with a little help from.. my friends ;)

I came home from the trip and i felt extremely sad because i wasn't in Northern California anymore. But soon enough I made plans with my friends here and those feelings subsided. My friends here although spread out, are very near and dear to me even though i favor some of them over others. Asian Sea Food Buffet with the dancers, Middle school asian get together, and one of my bestfriends 18th birthday party. I thought i had nothing to look forward to here for some odd reason but just seeing this makes me realize, wow i am in fact leaving a shit load here. This place is the longest area i've ever settled down in and could arguably be my hometown.

There's just so many memories that I can't believe they're all going to be distant from me. However in context that sounds saddening when in reality i guess that could be the best thing for me. Look towards the future. Or rather, handle shit now, but keep the future in your mind, and keep the past on the back burner.

time to make my limited time here be the last great moments of my child hood before i step into the college life of adulthood.

No Cal like Nor Cal

Northern California is what i like to think a different world when compared to the likes of Southern California. Small changes such as Albertsons is changed to Luckys I believe and Vons turns to Safeway. The weather is dialectal and there is in fact no in-between it seems in both respects. Southern California is either shit hot and Northern California is Shit cold.

Aside from all those obvious differences this short trip really stood out for me even more so than the re-uniting of the family after three years trip. Maybe it was because i separated from the thrones of the parents for a little while and i got a small taste of what it was like to be on your own with a bunch of college kids. Maybe it was my appreciation of cold weather and my re-kindling of the greatness of pea coats. Or maybe it was the sight of the city not Berkeley but Downtown SF.

Then the thought hit me again. (I'm living here)

Holy shit.
thats fucking awesome.

*takes a step back

I'm imagining what may be the greatest years of my life.
And i hope that with ever single moment that happens, there will be no unrest, no long periods of down time. No seclusion for long periods of time either unless it's summer.

This trip showed me that interesting events can happen anywhere, all it takes is a little cold weather and a nice warm peacoat.

Closet Gamer

Ever since I could remember i've always been so focused on video games that some of my major memories included video-games. If i was angry i would play video games. If i had homework I would play video games. If i broke up with a girl i'd go back to playing video games. If i lost something, i made up for it by.. you get the point of course.

As the years past i had this feeling that video games can't solve anything at all. Thus slowly but surely i'm growing more and more distant from them. Although i'm not saying the feelings are long gone it seems to have died down abit. Just like my urge to watch porn.. haha! seriously though, after i graduated a lot of things that i used to have interest in such as porn.. video games, non life advancing shit like that have taken a back seat in my mind. What's in the front you ask? Many things, School, Girls, Schoolgirls.. erm Life, Living in a distant place, Adapting to different surroundings, Snowboarding, Boxing, Friends and Social Links.

Although i see myself constantly bringing video games into my life every day.
When i'm in class i always imagine me having an academics skill that raises every time i do well on a test or something. Or zombies rushing at my car every time i'm at a stop light. Or my stamina constantly being replenished with every nap i take. With all my friends i see it as the sims... where in order to be close to said person you must constantly keep a random ass conversation going whenever possible... or in a persona esque way with social links. Your social link becomes stronger as you spend time with that person and in the end you have this unbreakable bond in which you can ignore their ass for as long as you want and they'll still be friends with you. I realize as i type this my weirdness level skyrockets but hey whatever.

Go video games!

Pet Peeve.

If there are two things that really irk me it's either-
Eating at Korean BBQ places because of the lack of food they actually give you, and they compensate with a million side things that i personally do not want to eat other than the kimichi; the second being hanging out with someone and they answer their phone and proceed to speak on the phone for a long period of time.

I can think of one instance that made me just completely pissed off.
It was a friday night i was watching 500 Days of Summer with the ex.
We're watching and talking about the movie when all of a sudden she gets a call.
Thinking she was gonna blow it off cause we were spending time to together it came to my suprise when she picked her phone up. In my mind i'm thinking "Oh it's fine, she won't be on the phone for too long." So i push that annoyed feeling on the back burner with the thought that she'd hang up soon enough. Well alas she answers the phone in the beginning of the movie. Hangs up right at the end. The entire time my face was filled with such annoyance that it was extremely difficult for me to hide it. She turns and looks at me and says "sorry about that just some drama." what?
Drama? What did your dad steal money from you're family and proceeded to send hit-men to assassinate you're mother? No it dealt with something with a guy of course. I turn and look at her and i proceed to say, "no whatever it's fine."

I'm sitting here wondering if I'm at fault for lying to her or if she's at fault for being extremely rude.
Safe bet both but now that i think of it, this is probably the one thing that will turn me off from anyone and make me just want to leave the conversation.
Don't get me wrong if you have business hey by all means handle it.
But thinking back on it now, that wasn't business that was just plain rude.
Whatever, I'll get over it like i usually do.

A month and nine days late.

I don't think i have touched upon the greatness of graduation yet.

The final week for seniors was a good time to reminisce and i wish i didn't have a girlfriend that i wasn't close to during that last week. because.. That was the last week I'd ever see the high school and experience high school classes, and talk to the high school friends. Anyway, we went to school three out of those five sad and final days. For some reason i can only remember snippets of what happened that week. There was a lot of annoyances with me and autumn that week because all i wanted to do was to spend that final week with the good friends that i've known for a long time. I remember the final day of instruction though, in fifth period advanced dance EVERYONE was crying and saying bye and junk. I couldn't help it, i balled... pretty bad >_> Then i go into sixth period with my eyes red and what not. Then all of a sudden half of the team goes into my classroom and puts the Crooks rival schools 1st place battle trophy on my desk. "We want you to have this david."
I'm like.. FUCK YOU GUYS i grab the trophy and walk out of the room crying. >_>
we spend that last moment just crying talking about shenanigans we did during the year like getting lost to the shows and being late to the shows and the countless times we played MW2. I miss the team.

The day that i got my cap n gown i see this guy walk in with his buddy. he walks out crying, turns out he didn't get to walk. Damn that was really sad.

We then had grad practice, and this entire week was just me and mark driving around places after shit happened... anyway i digress.
Grad practice would've gone smoother if everyone stfu

Then went to SD to get my veterans affair thing for coleigo.

The day of graduation didn't go to well or rather the morning didn't.
It was met with a rude text from the ex, and my annoyance over anything high school.

However when i got to the gym with all the other sharply dressed seniors i couldn't help but feel.. extremely happy. All the worries went away and during that entire time we were waiting, many elementary and middle school thoughts just came rushing through. Everyone was just excited to get out of the gym onto the field where we'd get that piece of paper we nearly killed ourselves for.

I get my diploma and i dont even look at the dude that gives it to me, i just walk off and start dancing off the stage.
Then walking down the green field aisle i take my hat off and do a butterfly kick.
I sit down and go "FUCK YEAH I GOT IT... shit i gotta wait another hour for everyone else to finish."
After graduation, it was just constant pictures, hugs, tears and whatnot..

I go home and im exhausted and i realize "whoah i graduated."
but nothing feels different, i tell my brother and he simply says:
"Don't worry, you're not supposed to notice when you enter into a new stage of you're life, i mean if you think about it you used to love nascar then now you dont, it's the same thing."

I am so glad that i'm going to Super Fun State

You just dont know.
;)

I can finally finish this collection.

My Off Season

With my dancing finished entirely i can now focus my leisure time on one of the other things i love to death, that being snowboarding.

The problem with this however is that since it's only during winter and stretches into spring time, that leaves me with most of spring, summer and the fall to participate in another leisure activity.

Therin lies the TRUE problem, i'm trying a lot of different things out and seeing what i like. I wanted to get into boxing because i love the sport of boxing, the art of fighting and the fitness it takes to win a fight. Training and shadow boxing and heavy bags and gyms always appealed to me. However i get the "no you're gonna mess up you're pretty face" O.o Male modeling was suggested by not just my sister but rather a good enough amount of people to start questioning what people think of me.

Im not that good looking, nor do i care what i wear enough to the point where i need other people to take pictures of me.

A simple solution would be then to focus on music for the off season.
and i have been doing this but seeing as how i want to do something a little more so than a hobby that's out of the question.

When i mean leisure i should rather put, Something totally awesomely productive that i focus a lot of my time on it. (snowboarding)

Maybe this is why I'm going to college, to pursue different leisure activities aside from gaining a little knowledge.

The weird thing about this all is that, usually i don't have this problem.
I was into video games so much that it turned into all I did, and now i find a million more things to do rather than to play games. So it goes without saying, video games are out of the question for my leisure erm i mean new found passionate hobby.

All in all, i guess i just gotta keep trying things until i find something.

Cmon winter, get here already.

Temporary Everything

I'll be the first to admit, i love staying up and talking to you on skype.
It's the highlight of my days actually, and it really makes me just feel happy for the rest of the day. We talk about the most greatest things and you have the greatest smile and laugh i've seen in a while from anyone. and yet there's this thing that's really itching me.

I pray i'm not doing this just because.. you're boyfriend doesn't talk to you.
I mean, im not naive i know that's one of the reasons why we're talking but i don't want that to be the sole reason. (i'm trying my best not to slander you're boyfriend.)
I just can't fathom how a girl like you.. (a *five star chick.. :P) can be (ignored) by your current boyfriend. Bias opinon FTW.. >_> I mean. CMON WTF NO ONE can get bored of you NO ONE. You're not that bad to look at either.

However, in all honesty, I'll be you're last resort and I'll be happy about it because I'm here for you entertainment.

You single handely brought me back to asian girls.

And by god I'm glad you're not reading this.
Sleep well Darling.

xD


I LOVE this summer.

huge flaw

I like girls too much.

The Last day for the rest of your grade school life.

Since i wrote one about the first day of the rest of my life (beginning of senior year) i might as well write about the end of senior year and the end of grade school as we know it.

The last class day for me and the other seniors in the TVUSD school district will be tomorrow June 8th 2010. It will be my last time walking down the sidewalk to the cross walk. Last time seeing will or patrick or jeff's car and hopping in for a ride XD. Last time complaining about fourth period. Last time chasing after high school girls. Last time walking to advanced dance for fifth period. Last time i see all of those teachers. Last time i wait at that tree in front of the school with the asians. Last time i see those asians everyday for school. Last time i'll ever be in high school. Last time i'll be amazed at how many people i've never even seen before on campus. Last time i talk to half of those guys i met and knew. Last time i laugh, cry, and get angry during school. Last time i dread the heat during school. Last time i'll do high school homework.

And my last day, as a grade schooler.

Interests

Who said interests fade?

I guess i dont understand it.

I don't fucking understand it


I want to get out now.

Bay area, Save me.


Fuck this.

Lazy Bastard

I dont like being too busy. If I know i'm going to be a little to busy i take it easy for a little while and just chill. I'm not the kind of person who has to do something every damn day, in fact I still enjoy sitting on my ass after school and playing UFC or some other video game. You might think it's sad or dumb but i enjoy it. I'm a very social person but going out and embracing the things that make me social only happen.. if i want too. Frankly as of late i really haven't been wanting to.

I guess this is making her mad.
Don't like it? tough.
I'm still not changing for anyone, hell i want to have lazy days because i need time just for myself. I enjoy time for myself just playing guitar or something productive like writing or anything.

Selfish?

In this context yes.

In the big picture not at all.
It's just the way i am, I want to chill in an environment i'm used too just because i prefer it most of the time. I'm not discounting chilling outside my comfort zone, believe me there are time periods where thats all I do.

For now, i'll sit at home enjoying things i enjoy in the comfort of my place.

Going back to the place where i dwelled.

Once i graduate and spend summer with my good friends i'm going to leave all of this desert and rain and sunny conditions for the gray overcast and sunny skies of San Fransisco.

I'm going from a suburban kid to a College/City kid, and that thought totally makes me stoked.
No need for driving to this place, just hop the bus down to sunset and get at some nice spots for food and clothes.

I'm barely going to know anyone in the school up there so it'll be a new frontier of meeting my new best friends up there, but the current ones down here which is a few i have to stay in touch with.

Oh man, High school is amazing, well it's not THAT great but i like it enough to say i had some great times. I keep hearing that College is one of the most amazing times of your life, and with that i cant just hold in my feeling of glee! I'm gonna be in a gah damn City, i haven't lived in a city.. ever and thats gonna be an adventure in and of itself. I'm going to be alone and i'll have to fend for myself. Nothing wrong with that, i always liked that independent thing.

Also, i can look for those legit record stores and true Chinese food places that only the locals know about. I'm going to learn the ins and outs of that city, and i'm going to be so connected within that city that almost every shop, one worker knows who i am. I dont wanna deal with bullying and annoying shit that i dealt with since middle school here.
I'm looking forward to drinking with the dudes and having stories with the ladies. I wanna make it memorable, and i want to continue snowobarding while up there.
I'm not a professional yet and i'm not stopping until i achieve that status of becoming sponsored.


There's nothing wrong with SoCal, frankly i think it's ONE of the greatest places on earth. Cool people, cool weather (sometimes) However, it's too car and driver oriented in that, you MUST drive if you want to get any real shit done, and that's great and all but i won't have a license till i'm 18 so mid October >_> Also i hate this weather for spring and summer, It goes from hot to ass hot to even hotter to a little colder then hotter. And some of the people seemed to be PO'ed all the time, and i hate cholos. I just cannot stand looking or seeing that subculture, because it looks soo.. useless. Also, I hate to say it but when you do live in a mid sized city but the major cities are an hour away, there really is nothing you can do within your town unless you like going to the mall. >_> I need a change of pace, hell i dont care if there are smug/ asshole people up there. Of course there is, it's bloody city. However this whole cabin fever of so cal i starting to wear me down.
I'm going back to the Bay where i was born.

Peace.

Here's the Situationoioinoinoinonin

Prom's coming up, and i'm not very excited.
As of right now the girl that i was talking to is offically talking to this other dude in my class and it's pretty much in my face every single damn day when 4th period rolls around. She even has the gaul to just stare at me half the damn class period. >_>
I was planning to ask her to prom too but nuts to that shit, that ish aint even worth it. Lets name her (E)

So when i found out she was talking to another dude i made a big deal about it with my people. Certain people caught wind of this and told me that hey you know there's another chick named (B) who has a huge crush on you. So im like oh alright, bad timing i'm trying to get over this girl i was dating who totally fucked me over. I mean she's to be honest gorgeous you know? but i dont know i'm completely confused.

Then comes another girl named.. (Y) who i heard before that wanted to ask me to prom but i was currently dating (E) so i pushed that in the back burner. But now I might ..."have to ask her" which sounds completely douchey. gahd dammit. There's nothing wrong with her but i just dont see her "THAT WAY" you know?

Then another girl (X) who i had to tell i wanted to be friends because i knew in my mind it wasn't going to work out anyway, because that was also really bad timing due to all of these other girls coming into the mix.

As you can see ladies and gentlemen that was 4 girls over the past.. lets say.. week and half? Jesus other guys would be rolling with joy, i'm sitting here typing like a bitch. I wanted a break, hell i need a break again. I took a year break to get over Allyson and shit i still kinda miss her but that's not the point. I tried to get back into this whole relationship scene with (E) but obviously she wasn't looking for a relationship.

So i'm at a crossroads and for some reason i dont feel like going either direction and just saying Fuck it.

-David.

Fucking bullllshiiet

I wanted a relationship you wanted a fuck buddy.
Bitch you coulda told me that sooner before i wasted my god damn time.
Fuck you, bitches like you make me glad i'm going back to the bay area.
Don't gotta deal with country conservative ass here.

I can be destructive too.

I dare not ask who's been helping you fall asleep.

Period. *sigh.

Glad to see this is journal now.

Fuck that bitch.

Weekend of March 11-15

This weekend reminded me of what highschool was all about.
Very eventful and quite astonishing to say the least.

Thursday March 11th- Half day and a bright sunny day, i get all my snowboarding gear ready and kyle comes by my house and we go off. We're talking and stuff then we carpool with AD all the way to Mt.High. This was Kyles first time and after his second run, he hit up the intermediate course. I can do the jumps on Chisolm now XD and i'm solidifying my riding now. Constant Improvement equals win. we boarded until ten then went to McDonalds. Kyles car broke down and he just charged his battery. We were then met with traffic on the 15 so me and kyle are just talking about like girls and friends and just "crazy shit" he ends up taking the backroads and his car breaks down in front of my house. He fixes it by hitting the battery XD Great Night boarding day all in all.

Friday March 12th- To be honest i've had a decent ammount of girlfriends over the years but i noticed i've never been out on a legit date, so alas this was my first "date." We were watching Alice in Wonderland so i order the tickets and waited for her on the bench. This group of like middle school girls walk by me and give me this weird seductive look. In my head i'm like.. DO NOT WANT. So yeah she shows up looking beautiful, we walk for abit and talk and then venture on into the movies. We see will and Stephen and like 5 girls with them, im like. gah damn. Anyway, we get free popcorn and venture on into the movie. I get her a drink and so forth and the entire movie in my head i was thinking "WTF DO I DO WTF DO I DO?!?" like a little kid -_-" Eventually i ask her if she's cold and i raise that middle thing and cradle her basically. Good times.. anyway after the movie she has to leave early, we say our goodbyes and i call AJ up to chill. We go to marks house and chilled with MVC2 then night came and we just packed it up and went home. ahh man. im soo noob sometimes >_>

Saturday March 12th- I wake up and go downstairs to make some breakfast, and my sister calls me asking for jamba juice. When she gets home i hear her scream "OH MY GOD DAVID DAVID DAVID!" she's holding a letter from a San Fran State. I look at it and think "ah shit it said incomplete the last time i checked, im not getting into this school. I'm about to go to my room when i stop and say, no i'm opening it here. and much to my surprise it says "we are pleased to say that you are admitted into SF STATE" IM LIKE WHOWHOWHWOHW WTF WTF WTF YEAH!!!!!!!!! twas one of the most happiest moments of my life. That feeling you get of all that work and bullshit you dealt with during grade school finally paid off for you and you realize that your not such a fuck up after all. I loved the smile my dad gave, oh man i called my brother and my mom, they were excited and as of this day i'm still excited. I just hope SFSTATE is a million times better than HS because i love HS. After that whole fiasco my sister got FF13 and i fell asleep, i ended up watching the pacman fight at my moms coworkers house and saw a boring fight. But that was fine, i talked to caycee until two in the morning xD, and mark and i had a hilarious conversation until like three in the morning. Talking about all kinds of shit. In the end it was a great day.


Sunday March 14 I sit here writing this and writing my AP Psych paper whilest thinking about my medly for production.
Senior year isn't over yet, and im planning to make it just.. utterly amazing.

Man.. wonderful weekend i swear. =)

Dude

Why do i feel so Noob when it comes to girls? wtf
so wack. >_>

Last Rival Schools Ever

It was pretty interesting man haha our team was having MINOR problems but you know it was all forgotten once it started.
1st battle, Crooks vs GOHS
gahd close battle, it was all just breaking.
It was Francis Joel and I who went out.
first it was francis, you know always killing shit
Then this guy started flaring, joel was like Naaaaah man.
So Joel goes out and starts flaring and shiet, power head to the bone.
Great stuff. then someone else goes out, then i go out and say, "i'll teach you guys to be funky."
I start locking haha then end off with the jumping splits. XD

Next battle K12 vs New Era
Winner- New Era

Then we battle New Era
Klaus is a little shaken because they dont have any buck songs so klaus gives them some, bam straight up buck right there. Him Brandon Azurin, Francis AND BRANDON SEAY GAH DAMN. Hitting every beat, funky as shiet. we win in the end. and i Yell YEAH WE AT LEAST GET SECOND XD

Next Battle K12 vs GOHS
Winner- K12 3rd

Final Battle for 1st and 2nd
Artistics Tribe vs Crooks
This was a doozie, Loren really wanted to battle so he went out and HELD SHIT DOWN. gahd loren im proud of that dude. Then Francis, Brandon Azurin, then shit i forgot but dude twas a crazy battle. AT held it down, and freaking Nick ABAT GAH DAMN. Amazing Shiet.

Then Agi*lity performed.
i guess it was a good performance?
right on XD

Final Winners




CROOKS

WWWWOOO HELL YEAH!!!
=)


We had to battle everyone else
which i wished it went on longer but thats alright
it was amazing
and we ended up winning the freaking Choreo Competition also.
hell yeah man. =)

AND it ended with me getting this girls number finally, and some flirting going on.
Gahd, im so glad i dont have "school" tomorrow.

I'm going to miss rival schools, after being to every single one, from chelsea tottaly smoking me, to the triple team me, tim and avo did.
I love Agi*lity so much.
and Dance.
And snowboarding.
just had to throw that in there.
-David XD

Weekend Tounge

I went up to the high and thought i'd work on my jumping and my switch riding the entire time.
Mostly a success, i'm slowly getting down switch and i can nail 180's when i'm just crusing, next time i'm landing them off jumps and boxes and whatnot.
Best thing that happened on thursday night sesh was me getting a shit load of air and FINALLY landing an indy and a tweak. Jesus. It was all speed man, no popping necessary.

Problem with that though was, i got really excited that i tried doing that a million more times, and those millions of times i stomped the landing but wiped out later.

Also, Boxes and rails are like my enemy, i can hit them sometimes but other times the board slips from under me and bam, hella bad spill.

All in all that night was just amazing, until i got home, i stepped one foot into the door and i literally passed out on the floor. shiet.

Now i need to go again to solidify my switch riding, and grabbing the balls to 180 off a jump.

=)

My Current Battle for Supremacy

There are niches for everyone, whether those may be video games, art, music, etc. Everyone has a niche. The thing is, i've found many hobbies, many past-times i love to death, and many times i've been content to where im at however, there has been two things as of recently where i want to shoot for enormous proportions.

The first one being, Dance. I will admit i'm not the greatest dancer after the three years in which i've been serious about it, however! i like to say i can hold my own compared to the next dozen asians who "think" they can dance.. no pun intended. I love it though, i only dislike it when i'm not actually dancing. The movement and.. to be honest, i love having dance skills. It throws everyone off a lot of the time. I dont want to say i use it to show off because i have nothing to show off anyway. However it is rather enjoyable when someone's watching you and you know they're going, "how the hell does he do that?" This seems rather shallow, and it is, however if you dance, give me another reason why you dance OTHER than to show people you got moves. Don't have one? thought so.
Anyway i went off on a tangent, the fact of the matter at hand is, i love dance but i feel as though i'm not 100% passionate about it anymore. I love doing it, i love having fun with it but i dont want to stick to it for any longer. My desire to strive to become the best has died down unfortunately. Maybe because i've always complained and talked about how i hate bullshit with everything. And how i feel left out, however i shouldn't blame anyone but myself cause i dont do shit. So it's no one's fault but my own. Which is why i question myself alot now with dance, i say that i want to do this but my mind wanders off into blue and white mountain tops.. which brings my to my other thing i want to speak about.

Snowboarding, it's something different, i can feel it. It's one of the only times when i've participated in something and thought, you know what, i'm going to be sponsered, i'm going to turn professional, i want to be one of the best. Looking at other hobbies, guitar, graffitti, mma, videogames, and dance, i've never once said to myself "i'm going to be the best, no better than the best at this." It's sad, and look what that brought me, i'm DECENT in guitar, I can fuck noobs up in videogames but still get my ass handed to me from time to time. I'm DECENT on grafitti but i cant do anything other than three letters. And with dance i'm not that bad but i'm not amazing or great. However with snowboarding though, i'm pretty sure it's the fact that my sister is so passionate about it AS WELL AS my brother. After just the third time going to the mountains, i learned how to turn toeside and heelside on regular and brake as well. And so I'm dedicated to learn how to go off of jumps and hills the next time i go out. I will tackle the intermediate course and own shit up in the black areas. I want to win competitions with hardwork and enjoyment with snowboarding. I want to get sponsored. I know that shit sounds high up there but the only reason why it sound high up there is because others dont want that, they want something, well to be frank, I want that. I want to be a mother fracking BEAST with boarding. So beast that i can shred anywhere i go, and anything i go off of. Whether it be Jibbing, grinding, flips, Jumps, Catching Big Air, Or carving down from the fracking top of the mountain, i want to do it all. I want to conquer this. You know what all this want stuff is like played out.
I will.
I will do all that shit.
Maybe i found my niche?
Or maybe not.
All i know is that, i can't stop thinking about snow, i can't stop thinking about how much speed i got when i went on conquest, and how bad i bailed. I will be Beast, i will fck shit up with snowboarding.

-David.

Tumblr.

Is a bloody image board for Hipsters who post shit about indie bands and how much they're a photographer and shit. OR post 4chan memes that were already made, laughed at, and forgotten months and years ago. Put it straight, it's a hipster 4chan board.. for no one who's ever set foot on 4chan.