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This entire summer the only thing I've been focused on was when i was going to leave, or how many days i had left or what i was gonna do when i first leave my parents and junk. I completely discounted the current place i'm in until just recently. Hands down this is been my most enjoyable summer as of late. I seemed to have gotten by with a little help from.. my friends ;)

I came home from the trip and i felt extremely sad because i wasn't in Northern California anymore. But soon enough I made plans with my friends here and those feelings subsided. My friends here although spread out, are very near and dear to me even though i favor some of them over others. Asian Sea Food Buffet with the dancers, Middle school asian get together, and one of my bestfriends 18th birthday party. I thought i had nothing to look forward to here for some odd reason but just seeing this makes me realize, wow i am in fact leaving a shit load here. This place is the longest area i've ever settled down in and could arguably be my hometown.

There's just so many memories that I can't believe they're all going to be distant from me. However in context that sounds saddening when in reality i guess that could be the best thing for me. Look towards the future. Or rather, handle shit now, but keep the future in your mind, and keep the past on the back burner.

time to make my limited time here be the last great moments of my child hood before i step into the college life of adulthood.

No Cal like Nor Cal

Northern California is what i like to think a different world when compared to the likes of Southern California. Small changes such as Albertsons is changed to Luckys I believe and Vons turns to Safeway. The weather is dialectal and there is in fact no in-between it seems in both respects. Southern California is either shit hot and Northern California is Shit cold.

Aside from all those obvious differences this short trip really stood out for me even more so than the re-uniting of the family after three years trip. Maybe it was because i separated from the thrones of the parents for a little while and i got a small taste of what it was like to be on your own with a bunch of college kids. Maybe it was my appreciation of cold weather and my re-kindling of the greatness of pea coats. Or maybe it was the sight of the city not Berkeley but Downtown SF.

Then the thought hit me again. (I'm living here)

Holy shit.
thats fucking awesome.

*takes a step back

I'm imagining what may be the greatest years of my life.
And i hope that with ever single moment that happens, there will be no unrest, no long periods of down time. No seclusion for long periods of time either unless it's summer.

This trip showed me that interesting events can happen anywhere, all it takes is a little cold weather and a nice warm peacoat.

Closet Gamer

Ever since I could remember i've always been so focused on video games that some of my major memories included video-games. If i was angry i would play video games. If i had homework I would play video games. If i broke up with a girl i'd go back to playing video games. If i lost something, i made up for it by.. you get the point of course.

As the years past i had this feeling that video games can't solve anything at all. Thus slowly but surely i'm growing more and more distant from them. Although i'm not saying the feelings are long gone it seems to have died down abit. Just like my urge to watch porn.. haha! seriously though, after i graduated a lot of things that i used to have interest in such as porn.. video games, non life advancing shit like that have taken a back seat in my mind. What's in the front you ask? Many things, School, Girls, Schoolgirls.. erm Life, Living in a distant place, Adapting to different surroundings, Snowboarding, Boxing, Friends and Social Links.

Although i see myself constantly bringing video games into my life every day.
When i'm in class i always imagine me having an academics skill that raises every time i do well on a test or something. Or zombies rushing at my car every time i'm at a stop light. Or my stamina constantly being replenished with every nap i take. With all my friends i see it as the sims... where in order to be close to said person you must constantly keep a random ass conversation going whenever possible... or in a persona esque way with social links. Your social link becomes stronger as you spend time with that person and in the end you have this unbreakable bond in which you can ignore their ass for as long as you want and they'll still be friends with you. I realize as i type this my weirdness level skyrockets but hey whatever.

Go video games!

Pet Peeve.

If there are two things that really irk me it's either-
Eating at Korean BBQ places because of the lack of food they actually give you, and they compensate with a million side things that i personally do not want to eat other than the kimichi; the second being hanging out with someone and they answer their phone and proceed to speak on the phone for a long period of time.

I can think of one instance that made me just completely pissed off.
It was a friday night i was watching 500 Days of Summer with the ex.
We're watching and talking about the movie when all of a sudden she gets a call.
Thinking she was gonna blow it off cause we were spending time to together it came to my suprise when she picked her phone up. In my mind i'm thinking "Oh it's fine, she won't be on the phone for too long." So i push that annoyed feeling on the back burner with the thought that she'd hang up soon enough. Well alas she answers the phone in the beginning of the movie. Hangs up right at the end. The entire time my face was filled with such annoyance that it was extremely difficult for me to hide it. She turns and looks at me and says "sorry about that just some drama." what?
Drama? What did your dad steal money from you're family and proceeded to send hit-men to assassinate you're mother? No it dealt with something with a guy of course. I turn and look at her and i proceed to say, "no whatever it's fine."

I'm sitting here wondering if I'm at fault for lying to her or if she's at fault for being extremely rude.
Safe bet both but now that i think of it, this is probably the one thing that will turn me off from anyone and make me just want to leave the conversation.
Don't get me wrong if you have business hey by all means handle it.
But thinking back on it now, that wasn't business that was just plain rude.
Whatever, I'll get over it like i usually do.

A month and nine days late.

I don't think i have touched upon the greatness of graduation yet.

The final week for seniors was a good time to reminisce and i wish i didn't have a girlfriend that i wasn't close to during that last week. because.. That was the last week I'd ever see the high school and experience high school classes, and talk to the high school friends. Anyway, we went to school three out of those five sad and final days. For some reason i can only remember snippets of what happened that week. There was a lot of annoyances with me and autumn that week because all i wanted to do was to spend that final week with the good friends that i've known for a long time. I remember the final day of instruction though, in fifth period advanced dance EVERYONE was crying and saying bye and junk. I couldn't help it, i balled... pretty bad >_> Then i go into sixth period with my eyes red and what not. Then all of a sudden half of the team goes into my classroom and puts the Crooks rival schools 1st place battle trophy on my desk. "We want you to have this david."
I'm like.. FUCK YOU GUYS i grab the trophy and walk out of the room crying. >_>
we spend that last moment just crying talking about shenanigans we did during the year like getting lost to the shows and being late to the shows and the countless times we played MW2. I miss the team.

The day that i got my cap n gown i see this guy walk in with his buddy. he walks out crying, turns out he didn't get to walk. Damn that was really sad.

We then had grad practice, and this entire week was just me and mark driving around places after shit happened... anyway i digress.
Grad practice would've gone smoother if everyone stfu

Then went to SD to get my veterans affair thing for coleigo.

The day of graduation didn't go to well or rather the morning didn't.
It was met with a rude text from the ex, and my annoyance over anything high school.

However when i got to the gym with all the other sharply dressed seniors i couldn't help but feel.. extremely happy. All the worries went away and during that entire time we were waiting, many elementary and middle school thoughts just came rushing through. Everyone was just excited to get out of the gym onto the field where we'd get that piece of paper we nearly killed ourselves for.

I get my diploma and i dont even look at the dude that gives it to me, i just walk off and start dancing off the stage.
Then walking down the green field aisle i take my hat off and do a butterfly kick.
I sit down and go "FUCK YEAH I GOT IT... shit i gotta wait another hour for everyone else to finish."
After graduation, it was just constant pictures, hugs, tears and whatnot..

I go home and im exhausted and i realize "whoah i graduated."
but nothing feels different, i tell my brother and he simply says:
"Don't worry, you're not supposed to notice when you enter into a new stage of you're life, i mean if you think about it you used to love nascar then now you dont, it's the same thing."

I am so glad that i'm going to Super Fun State

You just dont know.
;)

I can finally finish this collection.

My Off Season

With my dancing finished entirely i can now focus my leisure time on one of the other things i love to death, that being snowboarding.

The problem with this however is that since it's only during winter and stretches into spring time, that leaves me with most of spring, summer and the fall to participate in another leisure activity.

Therin lies the TRUE problem, i'm trying a lot of different things out and seeing what i like. I wanted to get into boxing because i love the sport of boxing, the art of fighting and the fitness it takes to win a fight. Training and shadow boxing and heavy bags and gyms always appealed to me. However i get the "no you're gonna mess up you're pretty face" O.o Male modeling was suggested by not just my sister but rather a good enough amount of people to start questioning what people think of me.

Im not that good looking, nor do i care what i wear enough to the point where i need other people to take pictures of me.

A simple solution would be then to focus on music for the off season.
and i have been doing this but seeing as how i want to do something a little more so than a hobby that's out of the question.

When i mean leisure i should rather put, Something totally awesomely productive that i focus a lot of my time on it. (snowboarding)

Maybe this is why I'm going to college, to pursue different leisure activities aside from gaining a little knowledge.

The weird thing about this all is that, usually i don't have this problem.
I was into video games so much that it turned into all I did, and now i find a million more things to do rather than to play games. So it goes without saying, video games are out of the question for my leisure erm i mean new found passionate hobby.

All in all, i guess i just gotta keep trying things until i find something.

Cmon winter, get here already.

Temporary Everything

I'll be the first to admit, i love staying up and talking to you on skype.
It's the highlight of my days actually, and it really makes me just feel happy for the rest of the day. We talk about the most greatest things and you have the greatest smile and laugh i've seen in a while from anyone. and yet there's this thing that's really itching me.

I pray i'm not doing this just because.. you're boyfriend doesn't talk to you.
I mean, im not naive i know that's one of the reasons why we're talking but i don't want that to be the sole reason. (i'm trying my best not to slander you're boyfriend.)
I just can't fathom how a girl like you.. (a *five star chick.. :P) can be (ignored) by your current boyfriend. Bias opinon FTW.. >_> I mean. CMON WTF NO ONE can get bored of you NO ONE. You're not that bad to look at either.

However, in all honesty, I'll be you're last resort and I'll be happy about it because I'm here for you entertainment.

You single handely brought me back to asian girls.

And by god I'm glad you're not reading this.
Sleep well Darling.

xD


I LOVE this summer.