Talk is cheap

Thats what she said, and she's right.
She has no reason for me to believe what i say.

Which is why i'm not just gonna tell her constantly, I'm gonna show her, through years and years of comfort, happiness, and fun.

She helps me get over myself and my complexity, she helps me realize that in the end no matter how bad or how annoying things get, she'll still be there. Calm and collected. No one in my life has had me face my dark side of my personality. No one has ever made me challenge it. No one has ever made me love, the way she has me love her.

Tiffany, I'll show you.
Talk is cheap.
But Love isn't.

Rage

I think i made a list of who i will fight in the future a while back.
I kinda want to add more people right now.
This won't make me feel better but it'll make me feel content.

First on the list: Adam Moore
Second: wouldn't you like to know.
Third: again, wouldn't you like to know.


You'd be surprised who i want to scrap with for the sake of closure between me and them.
Closure or having the feeling of ending their annoying/douchebaggieness.

Come at me.

I think

I have a problem.
One that is of a psychological sort.
I'm starting to think i have chronic depression.
coupled with anger.

I just, get so sad some times you know?
and it usually happens often and out of nowhere.
but it hasn't been like this before.
Not as bad as this.
Like, something bad happens or i come to realization that things aren't working out and i just get really sad.
I want to say what's on my mind, i really do.
But what's on my mind isn't exactly the prettiest nor selfless.
It's selfish down to the bone.
I'm sad
I'm really sad right now.
Ugh, i guess admitting it is the first step to recovery.

There's something about her.

She surprises me every day and it's always the little things that make me feel all giddy and happy when i think of her. It's like, she's showing me little things, little quirks that are just so massive that, the way she's presenting them, makes the actual hobby seem that much more awesome. Case in point, she paints with water colors. I love the fact that she's is a wonderful artist. The few times in which i've seen her drawings were the few times in which i've fell in love with her all over again. It wasn't something i expected either which was even more amazing.

She's is pretty handy with video games as well as handy with a lot of random things. When i mean handy i mean you'd be surprised by her skill on many things. Board games, she'll fuck your shit up, Trivia? You're dead. xD
I still remember the first thing she told me when i asked her "what do you do?" she smiled and said.. Nothing.
Now that i've been with her for quite a bit of time i can clearly say that is a huge understatement. No one have i met knows more about pop culture then she does.
No one i met knows as many funny jokes, stories, memories, plans, dreams, mockeries, disses, racist remarks, etc. than she does.
No one i met knows, just how to make me smile even when i'm feeling like the world is crumbling down.
No one i met taught me to love, the same way she has.