Realit y Cake.

A big piece of reality cake hit me.
although it's been hitting me for a while, i just try to ignore it, but
now i believe it's too deep to ignore.
College.
whats my personal statement going to be?
When am i gonna start my apps?
Should i put all of my activites in?
how many teacher recomendations should i get?
What scholarships am i eligible for?
Can i get my grades up?
are my grades good enough?
did i do enough to secure my future?
gahd all these questions are just soo important, and yet
i try my best to avoid them.
Not anymore.
I want to go to college, and i want to go to a a damn good one for that matter.
Junior college and Community college are a No No.
I'm shooting for a straight 4 year college. whether that be a UC or a
Cal State school.
In my head i keep on thinking "you're screwed david, you're not going to make it into college."
I dont want to keep thinking that.
I'm going to get in.
College is on the horizon, and i plan to have my shit done by the end of November (which is the time college apps are due)
Fuuuuccck.
Why did senior year have to come so soon?
I'm already feeling the effect in the BEGINING of JULY...
and to you underclassmen who are reading this and those of you who dont have to worry about this shit in like a year or two or three.
enjoy your shit right now, school is alot more important than you think.

hmmm...

personal statement prompt one- Describe the world you come from.

the world i come from?
an average life with interesting stories.
My stuttering has in fact affected me in terms of school as well as social interactions.
I hold back questions during class for fear of not being able to enunciate the word completely.


I remember a fucking teacher made fun of me because of it.
Fuck that teacher. Didn't teach me anything other than to NEVER end up like them.

whatever. I've had too many teachers that ironically didn't teach me a damn thing. and it wasn't my fault at all.
They just lack the ability to teach anyone.
ie: my ap english teacher.
who spent the entire class period watching britney spears videos and flirting with her boyfriend.
-_-"

Ahhh.. Schooool, College. DX

Do Work.
and get your shit into gear.